I am an ordinary person serving an extraordinary God. My dreams and desires have been based upon simple imaginations and human comprehension; mere figments of a materialistic vision, but God has taken my simple mind and fleshy desires, calling me to Himself; revealing in the process His extraordinary design for the declaration of His Glory. I am a self-centered creation, serving a self-centered God, in all reality desiring and obsessed in bring myself glory rather than proclaiming the Glory of the almighty, all powerful, perfect and holy God.
Over the past six months, God had begun to opened my eyes to the true beauty and delight in living for the simple sake of declaring His glory among all the nations. He has taken my dreams, my ideals, and everything I had chosen to believe in apart from His grace and promises, and striped me of them. I was shaken. For the true reality stuck me at the heart: I am a powerless human being, whose dreams are built on the beach of a raging sea, where at any moment the things I had chosen to cling to could be washed away in the foaming waters, so vast and deep. My dreams had been washed away and I was left behind with a simple question- with a choice: was I going to accept God's plans for me and seek earnestly after His heart, or was I going to dive into the raging sea in an aspiration of retrieving the dreams I desired? I knew in my heart that the sea would overwhelmed me and darkness and death would be the outcome, but it wasn't easy to turn my face from the raging waters to seek greater things.
In life there is a mountain in the horizon from whence a glorious light shines; far off, beyond deserts, plains, valleys and forests of intimidating width and length filled with unknown territory and hidden mysteries lurking in darkness far beyond the comfort of the sea: the things familiar and seen.
The light from that mountain in my life drew me spiritually and emotionally: there no way to simply describe with words the necessity to reach that mountain top: but the passionate hunger for that light far exceeded anything else worth pouring myself into. And so began a new dream: reach the mountain top where God waited in all His glory and perfection.
I have begun a journey to a mountain top where God waits. And I have only just begun the walk but already has God begun truly revealing Himself in a different light. God didn't call me to live my life on a sea shore building castles in the sand, hoping and praying that the waters would calm, and the sea would still to protect my perfect little world. I wasn't asked to casually go out where I am comfortable and speak of a God that I claim to serve whistle I live my life in sand. When I looked toward that mountain, I realized for the first time that Jesus didn't say "go make disciples" but as you go (I suppose that means as I pursue the mountain of God) I would make disciples wherefore they would leave their common places and follow after in likewise pursuit of the glorious light always calling from afar.
I am ordinary person, my sand castle wash away time after time, and yet I am so enamored with my fanciful dreams and desires, and the creativity which my mind possess: for the grand plans and hopes of the world that I build temporary material castles anew over and over again, instead of abandoning my ideals and dreams to discover God in all His glorious display.
Since I have turned my eyes from the sea to the glorious light, this road in the midst of the trying moments, and the difficult pursuit, God met me, and taken me by hand and leads me down the road. I stumble often but He has already taken me places far above and beyond anything my mind could dream or imagine. He has taken my empty dreams and filled my heart with joy in discovering His mysteries hidden along this broken road, already having exceeded any dreams that I could have built in the midst of castles of sand.
God is extraordinary. His glory far more fulfilling then anything a man or woman can comprehend.
Come with me to the mountain where we can someday behold God in all His Glory singing to the Lord most High, worthy of all praise and glory.
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